For never was a story of more woe

Maria started yelling at my Dad again and I heard everything. She told him she doesn't love him anymore and she's been talking to an attorney about a divorce. And that my Dad is going to grow up alone and sick. And his kids won't be there for him. What the fuck is that? I had to let off anger once I heard that through my room. So I threw a pair of shoes at my door. JUST to let off steam. Then Maria yells through the door that this is HER house(no, it's my Dads.) and that I don't throw things in here(even though she does and slams the door and breaks shit when she's angry). And that if I want to go then GO. So I yelled back and told her to leave me alone. Then Dad pulled her back and she threatened to call the cops if he touches her. SAME OLD SHIT. I'VE SEEN THIS BEFORE.

And Manu told me that she feels like I don't respect her. What the fuck does she expect? The first impression I have of her is her being immature. My mom gave them leftover ham one Thanksgiving as she was picking me up. I guess she thought my Mom was trying to flirt with him and then she THREW IT OUT OF THE CAR. Then called my Mom and called her a bitch and bitched her out while I was in the car with my Mom. I didn't forget that. Nope. And the time where she threatened to leave and call the cops on my Dad. And the countless times where I heard her complain about me. And the times where she threw a glass bowl full of food in the kitchen during her tantrums. The times where she slammed doors. The times when she blamed my Dad for everything. Manu said that I don't talk to her and hang out with her. Why should I? She scares me because I know she can blow up at any second.

Nothing is going to be the same in this house. I don't care if they divorce. I'm going to miss my step brothers and cousins but I can still talk to them. But this marriage is a failure. He's too old for her. They're not right for each other. I'm tired of keeping secrets. I can't even ask dad for a few bucks because I know she'll get mad and jealous. Mom has to call him in secret when she wants to talk about ME because Maria will turn it into something bigger and get mad. She gets too jealous. It's like I have a double life. I have to make sure Maria doesn't get angry. Blah Blah.

I can't wait to move out. I can't take anyone yelling at my Dad anymore.

I don't even want to make this entry friends only.

I was bored and decided to make Camilla Belle icons. I went overboard. She's not even that famous so not a lot of people will care but I think she's gorgeous. So whatever.

Comment if you're taking anything and credit. :]

Merry Christmas!

Have a good one.
♥

In loving memory
of Roxanne Whitemore
8/31/89-11/6/04

I can't believe it's been a year already...
we miss you.

I never got the chance to really get to know her.
I finally had a chance last year when she sat next to me in English.
Then all of a sudden, her seat was empty.
Please leave any memories of her here.

I know some of you ave an ipod...

Ok tell me, how do you get music on it??
Tell me everything about it before I actually get one.